Ajaz Qureshi
Quite brilliant in all aspects; generally profound and largely absurd, much of a perfectionist, verging on being obsessive compulsive with an extremely low tolerance threshold for sheer stupidity (even my own at times). A non-conformist, on a path to be an exemplary Muslim. A poet of the heart and an aspiring author. I may be small, but I cast a big shadow.
There’s anger in in my hands, waiting to be stilled. Tears in my eyes; waiting to be spilled. A niche in my chest waiting to be filled A void in my life; ready to be built. ♥
O Allah ﷻ! Make my heart fertile so that this rain of trials & tribulations may bear the fruit of Your Nearness. Alhamdulillah for everything ♥
Ajaz Qureshi
0Who are you? In comparison to who you used to be. What made you change?
Who I was before: Academically speaking, I was gifted but wasn’t focused and my grades reflected as much. I used to write rarely. I had the inspiration to just write but I was much of a procrastinator. I was sociable and confident, thinking the more people that surrounded me the more fulfilment I would have. I had little empathy and a big ego. You can say i was a ‘Plastic Gangster’ who was sucked into a self-destructive cycle, in groups of ‘friends’ who were much the same. I was naive; I wasn’t at all knowledgeable in dealings with family, life and love.
Who I am now: Academically, I am now focused, participating in seminars often and I take my grades seriously—I even passionate about my assignments. My inspiration to write comes daily, in floods. I am now socially awkward, hardly see, ring or text anyone anymore. I’m kind of a loner I guess; spending most of my time with my head in books. Oh, and my new hobbies? It’s either obsessing over women that will never be part of my life over or just simply reflecting on life.*le sigh* I’m a seeker of truth, beauty and love; enveloping myself into the richness of my deen and the world. I’m deeply committed to the study of religion, philosophy and life as well as the history, art and literature from all around the world. I aspire to live a virtuous life wearing a noble character as my attire.
What made you change? Many factors: my family, additional wisdom, experience, time, and lack of peace and love in my life. Oh and Prison.
# additional thought - If I was to bump into my 16 year old self in the streets today, I would most likely beat myself up and take my shiny new HTC from myself :/
Another time I saw a child coming towards me holding a lighted torch in his hand. “Where have you brought this light from?” I asked him. He immediately blew it out, and said to me, “O Hasan, tell me where it has gone, and I will tell you whence I fetched it.”
I send to my beloved the burning sighs of my love; I waft her with awe. That sweet moment of happiness at which I aim can only be won if my humilty and purity of my purpose can speak for me; I have no other intermediary. Whether my friend accepts homage or rejects it (in which I am powerless), my love, at least, will never waver. ♥
Light of my life: What brightness have I not recieved from You? I take the path of love, knowing that if I stray; All comes from Your blessed and adored Hand. No-one could ever accuse me of falsity to You; No wind could ever extinguish the Divine Light with which You illuminate me. ♥
